Mental health day !
It felt weird that morning,
my body was fighting against something,
may be, with the mere idea of waking up and
going through life.
I can't explain the feeling,
but I have never felt that worse before,
I couldn't open my eyes,
my heart was pounding heavily,
my head was being hammered and my body,
just couldn't wake up,
Next thing I know,
my pillow was wet, filled with my tears,
I was fighting, not again, not again
you cannot afford to feel this, not again,
I was consoling myself.
I don't know how I picked and
dragged myself to my father's bed,
with a heavy chest that could fall into my stomach any time,
I lay beside him and
I force shut my eyes,
covering myself in a heavy blanket,
I cried myself to sleep again,
knowing I was safe beside him, my father.
And that nobody can hurt me now.
That day, My father was there for me,
by just laying there,
having no idea about all of it,
He was there for me.
If only I had known before,
that this was the price you pay,
to love and not receive it back,
to be tricked and fooled in love,
I would have never allowed myself,
I would have never fallen in love.
~Pooja Durgi
It was World Mental Health Day on 10th October and I have gone through so many posts about self love, self care, therapy and all that. It triggered a lot of thoughts in me, I wanted to write a blog ( not this one) on how to overcome anxiety, how to improve your own self everyday but then I realized, that I am a victim too. I am still battling many things when it comes to mental health, I need help too. I'm a victim of over thinking and anxiety, my brain just doesn't stop. It needs help, I usually try to escape them by sleeping, but then I wake up with a heavy head and this pattern keeps repeating.
This is a self-reminder post,so that when I heal or feel better I want to comeback here, and remember how I once felt and only feel grateful for all the change that made me a better person.
So as of now, I'm only embracing my vulnerabilities and giving myself enough time to heal. This is a blog post to myself, hang in there pujju love, you will get better. You will go to Prague, Paris and will definitely watch the Golden bridge of Sanfransico. You are smart, you are brilliant, you are blessed, you are grateful, and yes, you can do it! :-*
my body was fighting against something,
may be, with the mere idea of waking up and
going through life.
I can't explain the feeling,
but I have never felt that worse before,
I couldn't open my eyes,
my heart was pounding heavily,
my head was being hammered and my body,
just couldn't wake up,
Next thing I know,
my pillow was wet, filled with my tears,
I was fighting, not again, not again
you cannot afford to feel this, not again,
I was consoling myself.
I don't know how I picked and
dragged myself to my father's bed,
with a heavy chest that could fall into my stomach any time,
I lay beside him and
I force shut my eyes,
covering myself in a heavy blanket,
I cried myself to sleep again,
knowing I was safe beside him, my father.
And that nobody can hurt me now.
That day, My father was there for me,
by just laying there,
having no idea about all of it,
He was there for me.
If only I had known before,
that this was the price you pay,
to love and not receive it back,
to be tricked and fooled in love,
I would have never allowed myself,
I would have never fallen in love.
~Pooja Durgi
It was World Mental Health Day on 10th October and I have gone through so many posts about self love, self care, therapy and all that. It triggered a lot of thoughts in me, I wanted to write a blog ( not this one) on how to overcome anxiety, how to improve your own self everyday but then I realized, that I am a victim too. I am still battling many things when it comes to mental health, I need help too. I'm a victim of over thinking and anxiety, my brain just doesn't stop. It needs help, I usually try to escape them by sleeping, but then I wake up with a heavy head and this pattern keeps repeating.
This is a self-reminder post,so that when I heal or feel better I want to comeback here, and remember how I once felt and only feel grateful for all the change that made me a better person.
So as of now, I'm only embracing my vulnerabilities and giving myself enough time to heal. This is a blog post to myself, hang in there pujju love, you will get better. You will go to Prague, Paris and will definitely watch the Golden bridge of Sanfransico. You are smart, you are brilliant, you are blessed, you are grateful, and yes, you can do it! :-*
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